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6/13/2005 I'm still alive. Working full time sucks ass. I'm seriously considering looking into how much money it would cost to get health insurance for just myself and cut my hours back to part time. I wouldn't make as much money, but it might be worth it. It wouldn't be so bad except... I don't know, I need to enjoy my job to be able to put that much time into it. Either I need to find a job where I can make my own hours or a job that I like so much that I don't mind being there from 8 to 5. Otherwise, it just drives me insane. It feels so confining. I know if I made myself do it, I'd just be unhappy. I really just want someone to tell me that that's okay. But everyone I talk to seems to be of the opinion that this is just how the real world is, get over it. Whatever. I went through a few rough patches in the last week or two where I was really depressed. I need to start writing those feelings down when I get them. Later, when I'm actually at my therapist, I never remember how it really felt, so it doesn't do me any good. I had a pretty good weekend, though. I so cannot remember what I did yesterday. Um. I think... I stayed home all day (not sleeping, though, that's an improvement). And today I went and took some engagement pictures for Robin and John at ASF, most of which turned out good. Had dinner, then went and hung out with some friends. It was good to get out of the house. I'm up way later than I should be, but I slept till 1 today. Maybe I won't be too tired tomorrow. Sigh. posted 1:10 PM / post / view (2) 6/2/2005 I'll try to post my Paris journal entries this weekend. My home computer went dead the other night and needs the power supply replaced. I should hopefully have it back tomorrow. But that's why you haven't seen my online in a couple days. :) I'm not too pleased with my current job situation, so I'm going to go to an employment agency next week and see if I can't find something I like a little better that doesn't involve my working with my parents. Living with or working with can be tolerated, but not both at the same time. Ellie has moved to New York and should be getting settled in by now. Hiii, I miss you! Ten more minutes, and I'll have made it through my first full day of work! This is my 8th day, but I haven't actually worked a full day yet. I'm either late or I leave early. But not today! And I got paid today, so yay. Okay, going now. Call me if I'm not back online tomorrow night. :( |